goodbye, old self

基督徒藝人的努力

梁靜茹的閃亮的星等，我們都看到基督徒藝人在歌曲當中所帶給聽眾的正面光明與積極。
基督徒藝人、創作人往往利用音樂作品的感染力，將上帝的慈愛與恩典、對信仰的反省傳遞出去，我們也求神親自使用這些歌曲，感動每一個聽到的人，在他們心中灑福音的種子，等待收割的時候。

Every christian needs to be a model of Christ. Because people are looking at our actions every moment and judge us through tiny details. I was eating with a non-believer one day for lunch and he asked me, "Don't you have to pray before you eat?". Avoid letting distractions invade to your mind Sab, no clubbing and do not give yourself a chance, that's the rule. I know you can do it! Congrads to fish leong's engagement, I hope my dream will come true in the future and it is all under god's plan.

"Refresh"

can't make it smaller:\
this video is touching!
no i can't forget the things he has done on me, thanks for reminding!

this is how it works.

Suck it up and stop complaining
I cannot give up the things I have in my life.

Credits to Alicia Keys.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hxvk3_I4zA4

"But to not forget those that you love, you can't take them for granted." - Alicia Keys, said in a video interview.

to be continued.

This was exactly my dream idea that i thought for my art portfolio in Grade 12. I was working on the water movements and tempted to take pictures in the pool. Such a shame but I wont have abilities to produce such an amazing work anways, haha

Wedding Planning course?

http://www.vcc.ca/programs-courses/college-courses.cfm?area=CSHOSPTLTY&prog=WEDDING&subj=BUSI&numb=1234

Wedding Planning course in VCC
$403.00
very good deal

especially when it's something that sounds interesting


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http://www.urbanwedding.com/British_Columbia/Event_Planners/

falling leaves

i had a long chat with kristen today when we were supposed to study. glad that i met a friend like you, my fellow listener.


"welcome to university."
uncle told me that students in university loves coffee two years ago, and i would never thought i will be one of "them" since i was an anti-coffee drinker in my whole life. my journey began last week, so far i've drank three, and that's the best way to keep me awake in class, at least i know that im working on my notes. luckily i dont have classes on tuesday and thursday or else i'll be a coffee addict. having green tea before you go to bed is definitely NOT a good idea. it was a nightmare for my eye bags.

for some reason i cried today in the bus, and that was a sign of relief. the lights were off and it was dark outside so it's all good.

15 Be very careful, then, how you live—not as unwise but as wise,
16 making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil.
17 Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the Lord's will is.
[Ephesians 5: 15-17]

fb day

so basically what i've done today was playing restaurant city and started a new game - country story. Bye bye cafe world and roller coaster kingdom?

Brainless games can relief my stress from work:) Though it is such a waste of time.


[Ecclesiastes 11: 1-10]
Sow your seed in the morning, (COUNTRY STORY:P?)
and at evening let not your hands be idle,
for you do not know which will succeed,
whether this or that,
or whether both will do equally well.

If i quoted a few sentences out from the devotion everyday and posted on the blog, people might think I'm extremely religious HAHA but you know I'm not. Seems like it's telling me that about my courses selection in the future, either business or communications will work for me, hmm or maybe both.

clam down my soul

Quoted out some sentences from the daily devotion:
- experiences of the writer’s past life and efforts to find satisfaction
- [Ecclesiastes 7: 1] "A good name is better than fine perfume,
and the day of death better than the day of birth."
Is the day of our death better than the day of our birth?
- Stop and think however.
Where and when do we really learn the most? In times of JOY or in times of HARDSHIP and sorrow? (Apparantly I am experiencing it right now.. pisces could never handle their stress properly!)
- Only one life, twill soon be past.
- Sometimes we ourselves can see that the road one of our friends is taking is entirely the wrong road for that person (It's more like I realized myself walking in a wrong path, not sure if business is my cup of tea)

1.2

I'm happy that things get better:) or maybe it's just me.

daily life

Church.
Work is stressful. Surveillance cameras are all over the store and I couldn't even take a break when I work less than 6 hours.
School.

Always get so tired after I slept more than 6-7 hours/day.

Old times

It was funny to look back and see yourself with big cheeks and wearing a different style of clothing. Some pictures used to be on fb and got pissed off one day and deleted 10+ photo albums! Definitely some of them are worth to be on fb again haha (laughing hardly about some stupid posing lol)

Time

Do things with no regrets in the future.
- That's what I've learned in math mid term, AP mandarin..
The girl who never thought about the circumstances after high school, has to bring herself back to the reality. By putting more effort to catch up what she had lost.





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She wants to be a strong figure in front of everyone

Places I want to go

Europe
Especially London, Paris and Vatican City
yeahh big fan of Da Vinci Code and Angels and Demons
I think it's just so cool to go to Europe:D


Maldives
I would describe it "the heaven on the earth"
Tibet, Mongolia, Xinjiang
Learnt their dance culture from elementary school's dance team.

Hawaii, Iceland
yeah i've studied too much Geography in highschool.

South Africa
Heard that people are very rich over there


Salar de Uyuni in Bolivia,
just saw a video about this place from a random person's facebook! man it's stunning!
I can walk on the water*_*!

Learnt a Lesson

Man how am I going to survive in math. I cannot even use words to describe the pain that given to my brain! Today I was thinking about: Should have enrolled Capilano U's business instead of giving myself so much pressure in transfering faculty. But I do care about how people think about me, and don't want to go to a College that just transfered into University. Oh wells, this is the path I chose to walk. No regrets but to work hard. End of story.

The video that I watched from Kenya makes me think about my selfishness in treating others. "Put others first" are mentioned in the bible too. However, it is extremely hard to acheive.
I feel so helpless staying in here and watch the people in the third countries starving. Wish I could do something to help them. Not just money issues, but actual help.

pisces

Your dreams are making life much more interesting than it was not long ago, and you may want to pursue one that seems utterly insane to outsiders. Go for it -- you can prove them wrong in days!

The biggest issue is my lack of confidence and time management.

bible of the day

Look again now at the well known words of Proverbs 3:5-6 and tell God your trust today is in Him. “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight” now and always.
Guess I have to trust him sometimes.

krissy

Kristen Yip - she's my girl.

there's too much coincidence between us. We have similar style of clothing, personalities and the taste of food.

Honesty I can't wait to see you being married, and i can be one of your bridesmaid. I almost jumped up to the air when she told me I am definitely in her wedding team, man we just met like 2 weeks ago. very amazing.

so tired of socializing.

i've changed
from a girl that loves to talk,
into a girl that wants to hide herself from the big crowd.
and the more i look at things, the more i get exhausted.
it's just not only because of THAT, and also my school work.
im stressed out.
im tired of everything, seriously.
there's some kind of feeling that i want to stab myself
to clam down myself
to keep my mind clear

that was a weird thought.
but who can help me to release it?
i used my own ability, it didn't work; and
i prayed, it didn't work also.

this is defnitely the most stress i ever had in my entire life
every time when i woke up from my nightmare
i always think about the days in hk
life was so relaxed and relieved
which i wont be able to do for the rest of these four years

life could be fun,
but not in this way
i know these are the hard times i have to go through
but where can i express my feelings?
No one, no one listens,
except the little creature that lives deeply in my heart.

where are you, GOD?
you gave me lots of miracles
i know you want me to learn something from this experience

juli told me,
that he's trying to provide us experiences
to let us overcome it
in order to survive in the circumstances we have to face in the future

emily carr university

I am proud to have a friend like Peter. For a person who says live life for Art in Vancouver, at least, Going to Emily Carr would be their dream. My friend made it and did what he wants, how lovely it is. So I made a visit to Granville Island. It is definitely one of the most beautiful places in Vancouver. It was actually very relaxing to have a breakfast in the market. Sitting there read the book for my English Drama class.

A NEW SABRINA

I kind of having a feeling, very hard to describe in words.
The big turning point from a highschool student and becAme an university student. I still cannot believed this. It means a lot to me because everyone expected me to go into university someday. Times flies, 19 years of my life has gone and now I'm in uni. I would never thought there would be such an amazing opportunity for me like this two years ago. When I was still holding a CE certificate with awful marks that I almost cannot find a senior school to accept me in Hong Kong. I tried to study hard, but not enough. When I came to Vancouver, I became more independent, my sight and experiences grew. Somehow I started to think about my future. I didn't meet best friends in grade 11, all i did was being like a nerd, went to the library and do researches about ca's universities. I was fully prepared. Things started to change in Grade 12. Everything could be so unpredictable and not under control. That's what happened to me. I screwed up a little bit. And I learned a lesson from it. Yes if i tried harder and put more effort in school, I will be a business school student now. This was what I regret the most from my previous year. Because I gave myself more pressure now to work way way way harder than ever to get a change to transfer. I'm stressed, ate quiet a bit after I came back from hk . Eating is my way to express myself. But in the meantime, I'm very joyful. Because I love university way better than highschool. People might ask why, but that just the way it is. The stuff taught in class sounds more interesting and innovative. Though there are like 10 million web links for me to dig and find the deadlines of the assignments. I met one friend in my Health Science class and go to Calculus with chloe, not much, but Im satisfied about the friends I have. Friends that used to be in Burnaby North and the friends in HK.. What else I can ask for? The purpose for me to go to uni is to study, not to meet friends. I found myself different in this point. hee, what a big change.

the beginning point

I'm feeling awesome.
Finally it's my turn to be an university student after the long waited 7 years of highschool.

Everything turns out in the other way when you are apart of it. I have never seen so many students in SFU and I have to aviod looking at them to make me feel like an idiot. But actually I was just seeing if there was a chance to see anyone I know.
I get confused about the signs leading for the U-pass. Stepping into the book store was the best feeling ever. Smelling the new books and looking at the people running around to find the books they need.

Unfortunately, I will never see familiar faces that walked across the hallway, chatting with friends during breaks.

summer in hk

My trip in hong kong is ending within two days, sign. Love the elementary school gathering!

English had left behind me for awhile and I'm pretty sure it got worse. It's time for me to pick up now in order to get prepared for university. Honesty I'm getting a little bit nervous because My current goal is to be an exchange student in England two years later. It is going to be a big challenge since I have to maintain a certain GPA in two terms. Don't forget that I still want to get into business. I've been treating myself pretty greedy but that's the way it works right? Everyone would love to make themselves more perfect, so do I.

the confusion of a highschool graduate

This little girl is still trying to figure out what is she going to do with her life.

I don't hate my job but my sales of each shift could lifted me up to heaven or dragged me to hell. Working with someone that is competitive is even worse. They took all the big sales away.

There's no doubt that I really want to take business courses in SFU. First of all, writing and reading English is one of my weaknesses. I will die for doing it for the entire four years of my university life. Secondly, I personally think it's really cool to be a part of the business team, no matter in school or at work. Well that was a foolish thought, but the point is, I don't want to waste four to five years of my life doing something that is not worth it.

I just hope the school will update my admisson average with the two AP marks included. Then the possibility to get into business will raise.

Everything that I've experienced is a lesson to learn.

EXHAUSTED WEEK

This is the most exhausted week ever

English presentation (dang it was awful)
AP art portfolio show
AP mandarin exam
work
AP art portfolio submission due
broke up and then back together


I have learned a bit in each of the things above. This girl needs to be more independent, more concentrate no matter what happened, avoid to stay up late at night (sadly which I'm still doing), and willing to work in a place that I like. It would be ten times better if I'm working in retail, rather than standing here looking at something I am not interested. The penalty of refusing to do Earth Science home works and studies is to work on it during the weekend. It's getting so hard to understand.

I can't handle anything more than these. But I still believe, life is wonderful when you know that you are working for God.

SCAR

The scar keeps on reminding me that this might happen again in the future.
When I thought about this, I can't stop crying again.

GLOBAL WARMING

limo is done.
burning my photos into a CD is done.
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but there's still a lot stuff needs to be done.

Just finished Chp.6 assignment for Earth Science,
it's about temperature, weather forecasts and 2 pages for GLOBAL WARMING. Which kinda sucks, all i did was going on Wikipedia, copy and paste.

At least I've learned that it's an issue that we people from this planet, needs to deal with it. Too bad I'm sorry, I still go on my friend's car and waste so much gas.

I feel bad for the environment,
and everyone is as same as me, hard to give up what they have.
What should we do for this place?

"This is an Inconvenient Truth," as Al Gore would say.

NIGHT MARKET

I saw this while we were waiting for the bus to skytrain with Vanessa and Victor. The school looks lovely. I admired spending two years in this place.

Today is a big day for Grad Council - the first ever Night Market. Hmm it wasn't the worst event but not very good. The sponsors wasn't very happy because it's too quiet.

I like the hot dogs i made though haha and proud of the raffle tickets we sold.

BROKEN

Finally my giraffe's neck is broken:( It was bent when I was wearing it yesterday. Today I accidentally forced it with my fingers and break his poor little thin neck.. I'll miss you forever. Thank you sis for this lovely present.

yay! No words to describe how "exciting" I am-_- Yes I am going to die soon damn it! It's due soon!! I am getting sick of my photos.. since I went through so many times. hmm how to start and write about my concentration's idea:( I don't know how and where to start it!! Hate writing stuff especially this few sentences might affect my art portfolio's grade!

SILENCE

I tried to calm down myself, but my mind is out of control. Struggling about work, worried about school and about him. When we were sitting besides each other in the car today, I thought you didn't care about me at all. Until the time you turned off the seat warmer button. Did you help me turned it on? I wish the answer is a "yes."

I asked him a few days afterwards. Seems like he didn't have any clue at all.